Hello guys and gals! Its been a while!! 3 years! wow Alot has happened and ive been on a kinda hiatus and i'm super sorry for it.
My photography and all of this has just been put on the back burner but hopefully i will be coming back,
When i say alot has happened.... let me elaberate...
please stay with me if you can...
thank you if you stay till the end...
abit of history with this blog if your joining me for the first time
My name is Heather Annereau.
I am 29 years old.
I am one of 9 children and the only ones who dont have kids are me and the 2 lads, one older and one younger then me and some of these are step family but we tend to not say stepfamily as its just family.
I am an ADHDer, but thats okay.
My whole life i have been trying to find that balance between me being me and the me that others want to see.
its hard.... but doable....
I have tried my hardest to find something that helps me focus my ADHD and helps me concentrate, thankfully photography is that tool.
For those of you who do not know what ADHD is then your in for a treat.
Okay so ADHD stands for:
Attention
Dificit
Hyperactive
Disorder
ADHD is different for every person with ADHD.
ADHD is on the same spectrum as autism and aspergers.
For those of you who want to know more research it!
Itd be awesome for any of your friends who have it, some people will have been diagnosed when they are aduts, others get told when they are children... like me, when I was younger I used to hate it. as i got older I would hate adults who told me that they had just been diagnosed.
its like a double edge sword, on one side its great to be a child and get diagnosed cause you have the meds and the therapy that you need to help you and to teach you how to control it and how to work with all the symptoms that come with ADHD and trust me theres alot, BUT downside to it is that you get bullied a hell off aot because you are the odd one out, the different one... the ADHD kid.... the other side of the sword is that you get a diagnosis when your an adult and everything youve had to deal with while you were younger makes sense BUT you arent the one getting bullied.
Again if you want to learn more about ADHD please research it, online or get some books, one that helped me was a book by Dr Christoher geen and dr kit chee - UNDERSTANDING ADHD, its a good book and explains alot.
anyway most ADHDers need something that will help them with all sorts, things like their concentration, their anger etc
i have searched for years to find something that can help me and in the past i've had a few things that have helped me,
things like horseriding, reading, art and photography,photography has turned out to be the best one to help me out and so i do incorporate ADHD alot into my work with colour pops or parts of the photo being blury or just taking photos of random things that make me smile...
Okay
now to get to the reason for me being away for soooooo long
Okay so firstly we as a planet had covid.... that kinda made me unfocus on photography and made me think 'crap how am i going to pay my rent?', so ended up in morrisons working there for abit and hated every second of it.
before lockdown and before the whole world shut itself down, I was workng at the pub that I did work at, had to leave that one as the pay that they were going to give us when pubs and such closed wasnt going to be enough for my rent so had to get a different job... as soon as everything reopened I got my job at the pub back and alot of stuff happened with that.
During me getting my job back and realising that I hated the pub I was in and things changed for my family too
My sister had her 2nd child and then broke up with the dad(hes still in the picture so that he can see the kids before you all go alittle crazy)
My mums illness were still there with a vengeance.
2 of my uncles died both from my dads side of the family, this was after I lost one uncle in laws from my mums side during covid and one uncle in law from my dads side of the family.
we as a family lost alot, We also lost my stepdads mum, so we've lots alot of people in our lives, just as a family and in the last... what?... 3 years?... its been hell.
On top of al that my dads cancer came back.
In september last year, we as a family got told that it was back and we didnt know how long we woud have left with him.... during this time I really didnt want to pick up and do anything, I just wanted to be there to help my family out with dad and see him as much as I could, so as much as I hated it, I moved back in with my mum(lived round the corner from my dad, it was easier to go and see him and help out).
As we didnt know how long we'd have left with him we were very surprised when he made it throgh christmas, his birthday and easter! things then took a turn for the worse afte the radiation didnt work.
August 1st I started my new job, its the same as the other one I was in, just as a bonus there is no kitchen and its just a pub pub not a restaurant pub.... I was able to get a part time job in this pub, the boss actually understood that I just wanted a part time job so that I could spend most of my time with my dad, I am very greatful for that and to have one where the management actually care about the staff and what they need.
On August 15th 2023 my dad died, he had al of us around him as he just slowly closed his eyes for the last time, the thing that fully got me was the tear that came out when he closed them for the last time.... the next few week went b realy quick, my nieces and nephews birthday, my mum and stepdads wedding anniversary my older brothers birthday, my birhday and then the funeral.
its been alot to take in especially for an ADHDer, my heads going aittle crazy right now, inbetween all of that I've had the normal life drama, friendships ending, work being work etc...
BUT i feell ike its time to get back on that horse and take some photos, its going to be a slow process so bare with me and i'll probaby start by doing blog posts at first to get back into the swing of things but i believe that its time....
so if your still with me then i need to do a massive THANK YOU.
THANK YOU for staying with me while I unload a shit tone
THANK YOU for staying with me all these years!
THANK YOU for coming back every time!
and last one
THANK YOU for coming to see my little somethng special!
R.I.P John annereau ❤️
